{Dear Daddy}

Dear Daddy 2020 | The Open Home

Dear Daddy Man, I crowned you with this title half a decade ago now and it sure looks set to stay. You know, there are many men out there who are fathers and many more who are also dads, but there will only ever be one Daddy Man like you. You are my first love, my role model, the man I look up to, the man that sets the bar high for all men. Thank you for always having time for me, for inviting me into your quiet space to ponder life and for knowing just how to make me laugh when I’m really trying hard not to!  Lots of love and zoidbergs from your daddy’s girl, Blossom xx

Dearest Daddy, you are my best Daddy! Did you know that? I know I tell you often but today on Father’s Day I just wanted to make sure you really, really knew it. The reason you’re my best Daddy is that although we don’t always see eye to eye, you love me deeply and always know how to make me smile again. Plus you like to go on expeditions, just like me! Sea swimming, bat hunting, sunrise watching and you’re even up for Siberia! Not everyone would be keen on traveling to the coldest city in the world with me just to search for long lost mammoths, but you are and that means a lot. Lots of love and fist pumps from your feisty girl, Bubbles xx

Dear Not Mum, after the initial disappointment that you don’t have fully functioning mammary glands like the Mummy Lady I’ve decided we can in fact still make this father son relationship work. After all, I do appreciate how you jump every time I call and how hard you try to make me smile no matter how much you have to degrade yourself. You are proving to be a loyal and hardworking subject. If only you could learn to speak baby and then I wouldn’t have to tell you three times over that I need my nappy changed, but then I guess it’s not your fault that your brain has shrunk to the size of a puny adult. Oh and thanks for helping me with my wind, we wouldn’t want to offend the ladies of the house with such manly things, it’s good to know you’ve got my back. Your son, Stormageddon, Dark Lord of All (also known as Buzz). 

Dearest Husby, what a difference a year makes!? Last Father’s Day you were truly outnumbered by your ladies and this year you have another wee man fighting in your corner. I wonder what future Father’s Days will bring? Love, love, love, love, love, love! All of my heart, Wifey xx

Happy Fathers Day!

An Open Letter to Malawi

An Open Letter to Malawi | The Open Home

Dear Malawi,

I can hardly believe that it has been 10 years since we first became acquainted with one another, nor can I believe it is now five years since I last visited you. I never intended for it to be this long but you know how it is, life changes even when you don’t want it too.

For such a long time so many of my dreams involved you, you made me feel so alive, so full of purpose and I want you to know letting you go was not easy, even if it was the right thing to do.

Out of all the sacrifices we made along the way, more than passing up career opportunities, more than selling our house, sacrificing our dream of you was the hardest and most heartbreaking decision we ever had to make.

Perhaps the timing wasn’t right. Perhaps it was time to dream new dreams. Perhaps amongst all the good intentions we had lost focus of the most important thing.

Whatever it was, a future without you was a daunting prospect and for some time I found myself grieving for the life we could have lived and the dreams that would never come to be.

Five years on and my heart has slowly healed. I am now a mother to two sweet little blonde girls and for the first time in a long time I find myself happy being stuck on this little rock that I get to call home.

In the end thanks to knowing and losing you I have learnt to live life with an open heart. I know myself better, my passions more clearly and I have come to see the journey God had us on all along.

It’s fair to say that life isn’t what we originally planned but it has turned out to be pretty great anyway. And you’ll be pleased to know that with time I have found the courage to dare to dream again.

Malawi, please know you will always be held in my heart with such fondness, I am who I am today because of the part you played in my life.

Thank you for having such a warm and generous heart. Thank you for being part of my story.

Yours truly,

Jessica x

P.S. I promise to visit again one day, hopefully with those two blonde girls I was telling you about. I want them to know you like I do.